HAHAHAAa.. OKAYY.  SO YOU'RE ALL GOING TO KILL ME BUT I DON'T CURRRRRR.  BE PREPARED FOR THIS ONE.. READDYYY...!!?

i got a new xanga.. again.

hahahahahahahhaa

i hate the name of this one.. soo, i got a better one.

xanga.com/a__WHOREABLEtragedy

SUBSCRIBE &&& COMMENT ON THE NEW ONE.

the favor will be returned indefinately.

EDDDIITTTT >>>>

okay, so the link isn't working for some reason for some people, but whatever.. figure it out if you really wanna know.

kthanks.

i promised you a picture post and by god.. you're getting a picture post.  so, be prepared, kids.. these pictures are some heavy duty sex and you're about to be lookin' at them.  hey, i warned ya.

^^ me and the love of my life!  my baby sister, cleo.

^^ me and my sister brittnneeyyy...

^^ me and ashley trying on lingire shirts (which we got, btw)

^^ my new favorite shirt ever.  ignore the disgusting picture.  ashley snapped a shot of me while i was eating my recess blizzard at dairyy queeeenn.  hells yes.

^^ our new sunglassesss.. pimp as fucKKK.

^^ MY NEW AMBERCROMBIE SHIRT.  alcoholic priddeeee

^^ MY PIMP SHIRT cuz i'm a baLLLERrrrr...

no daddy-baby pictures yet..  soon, though.. i hope.

i had the best night with kara tonight.  we got in a titty fight.  haha and peed in bryan's yard.  and then drove around and talked forever.  we went and got my bryan box from my house.  we're going to church tomorrow together.. i love her sooooooo much!

i don't think things are turning out like i thought they were.  i'm pretty sure i made the mistake of getting my hopes up.  but then again, i'm trina.. that's all i'm good at.  getting my hopes up and having them crash down is my specialty.  oh well.  i guess i'm cursed.

Starting over at the beginning,
Breaking hearts just isn't in me.
Don't act like you don't understand,
She'll be there to take your hand.

You were always the one to leave,
held me to be the one to plead.
Well im here to say im done,
Fuck you, im gone.
-- drowning beauty "teen suicide note"

well, i'm gunna go call my sunshine and make his wholeee night..

get me on featured with your sex ©

you are my sunshine.. my only sunshine.. you make me happy.. when skies are grey.. you'll never know dear.. how much i love you.. please don't take my sunshine away.

MY SUNSHINE IS BACKKK.  i love you baby.

so, me and miss ashley boddy got a job today.  yes, that's right.  pimps with a cash flow is what we are now.  we're going to the mall to check out some stuff for our new el job-o.. and of course.. getting some much needed necessities (CLOTHES, duh.)

OH, AND TONIGHT!? ME + STOLEN CAR + HOT BITCHES + MY FUTURE HUSBAND + WHATEVER WE DAMN WELL PLEASE = BEST NIGHT EVER.  be jealous, because i know damn well that i would be.

as soon as i get the fuckin' cord to my camera then i'll have a massive picture post soon.  i need hella daddy-baby pictures.  you'll diee.. it's just about the cutest damn thing you've ever seen.  well, will see, that is.

okay, so i had a girl email me the other day saying how "fake" i was.  how i don't really have my bellybutton, ears, nose and tongue pierced.  and allll that good shit.. you know the whole she-bang.  i think it's completely HILLARIOUS how these people who have NEVER met you.. think they know EVERYTHING about you.  oh, wait.. my mistake.. you do!  i mean, you see this picture of me everyday on the left hand side of my xanga.. and you read these words that i type on here.. god, how stupid am i..?  OF COURSE you know the real me!  OF COURSE YOU'D KNOW IF I'M A FAKE!  i mean, one picture and a bunch of words definately makes you know if i'm "fake" or not.. jesus christ, i'm so sorry.. please forgive me.

yeahhhh.. OR NOT.

here's an idea.. if you're really on this high and mighty streak of finding "fakes" on xanga.. go to some of those "celebrity xangas".  because you know, britney spears and paris hilton definately have time to go on and make a xanga and write in it 30 times a day.  so, if you want to find some fakes.. go there.

oh, wait.. my bad again.. those celeb xangas are sooo real right?  i mean, i didn't know there were 300 christina aguileras in this world.  and i didn't know that hillary duff didn't know how to spell her own name?  hmmm, weird.

why the hell would you spend your time acting like a celebrity.  i mean, seriously.. at least just make up someone and act like them.. why act like someone you're OBVIOUSLY not!!  some of you seriously need lives.. seriously.

oh, and if one more person leaves one of those.. "leave this in 15 people's xangas and then press F2 twice and then turn off the computer, turn it on.. spin around in your chair and hop on one foot and your love will come kiss you at 5:47 exactly!".. i will seriously hunt you down.. buy a plane ticket.. lock you in a closet.. and set that closet on fire.  i hate you morons who believe that shit.  please, i'm begging you.. get a life.

or i will set you on fire..  and slit your throat.

you know, just to get my point across.

kthanks.

NO WOMAN.  NO CRY.

leave some hardcore ©

today has been soooo up and sooo down all day long.

bryan was being a dickfuck again today for a while.. but he's better now.  he was around tysen so he was like, showing off or something?  i figured.. if he was really serious about changing and being a mature, responsible dad now.. then he would be like that ALL THE TIME.. not just when he's around me.. right?  it made me think that maybe bryan was having me stay there for more than just "conner reasons" but he started being nice again, so it's okay now.  he even told me that he'd wake up with conner tomorrow so i can sleep in.  yesss, scoreeee.

i told my sunshine what happend.  i'm scared things aren't going to be the same between us.. i'm scared i just lost him.  i don't know what i'll do if i lose him.. he's my world and i seriously don't know how i'm gunna go on without him.  i'm such a fuckup sometimes.

props to kara for this amazing daddy-son picture::

hahahha, better ones soon.. no worries

trina: remember at the game today.. we were talking and you said what i should do if bryan only stays like this for a little while?
kara: yeahhh...
trina: well, tonight i'm gunna cram as much in there as i can.
kara:  HAHAHHAAAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA

i would like the world to know that kara is a fucking perve.  haha

okay so, today was about the best day ever.  i can't even begin to say how freaking happy it makes me that bryan is finally being a dad.  and the thing is, conner doesn't like strangers.. and to make matters worse.. conner has never really liked bryan.  haha, seriously.  but i don't know what it was today.. but conner just loved him.  bryan knew exactly what to do to make him not cry.. i mean, just.. everything.  i seriously haven't felt this good since conner's been born.. so in at LEAST a year.  omfg, i just can't believe it.

but i'm scared.. cuz when things get this good..they always get bad again.  i hate thinking like that, but seriously.. this is one of those "too good to be true" moments.  i've always been one of those girls who sits back and see's all these teen moms with the dad's there to help them thinking lucky bitches because those girls ALWAYS take it for granted.  they don't realise just HAVING YOUR BABY'S DAD THERE helps more than you could ever know.  but now, i'm one of them.. and i will not, ever take bryan for granted on this.  i've waited over a YEAR for him to be here.. i just hope it says that way.. and i can be one of those lucky bitches forever.

here's to hoping. 

plus, not only did bryan make my whole day today.. he made my night, too.  i can't believe he's changing so much.. so fast..so well.. but i'm DEFINATELY not complaining.  he's a whole different person.. it's amazing.  i just hope he doesn't change from good to bad just as fast as he changed from bad to good.. ya know?

but i have faith in him.. i don't know why, though.  haha, oh well.

but being here makes me miss my sunshine.  you know who you are, babe.  i miss you, i hopeee i get to see you tomorrow.  you make me smile the second i lay eyes on you.  thank you for being here for me and i hope the fact that i'm staying at bryan's doesn't interfere with us.  you mean way too much to me and i wouldn't be willing to sacrifice you.. not for anything.  stay with me throught this, babe.  kk?  i love you, sunshine.

i think i'm gunna put some quotes on here.........
cuz i'm in a really quote-sy mood.

I guess the most that I can do is make the call
tell you truth, sing the words in melody
&& hope that you'll believe me.

okay, so i know those were all like.. depressing, heartbreak kind of quotes, but i like them.  they don't really relate too much but whatever.. they're sex.

and i just told jessica something about tonight.. her response?

LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: DKFJAL;SKDFIOPAWEJRFJASDIP 4U3[90UPDMFAS
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: D;JKSHFO34JU80FPOSD
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: you're serious!?

hahahhahaha, i love this girrrllll...

while i'm on the subject of miss harper::

LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: OMG I WANT YOU  GUYS TO GO BACK OUT AND BE TOGETHER FOREVER
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: AND GET MARRIED
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: AND HAVE MORE KIDS
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: AND GROW OLD AND WRINKLY TOGETHER
LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: AND LIVE IN A RETIREMENT HOME TOGETHER

umm, she's about the bazillionth person to say that to me today.  bethanne asked me if she could be my bridesmaid at our wedding.. i told her she could be the maid of honor at my wedding to WHOEVER i get married to.  i think it's hillarious how me and bryan are getting along for one day and now everyone is planning our wedding.  ummm, yeah no. thanks, though.

well, loves.. i'll be sure to get some bryan-conner pictures soon.  leave some love or advice on whether or not i should get my hopes up.. should i just enjoy it while it lasts.. cuz who knows, maybe it will.  help trina!!!

EDDDiiiTTTT >>>>

LgLLyXbRuNeTtE: UMM I JUST READ YOUR UPDATED ENTRY AND I DONT CARE HOW FUCKING OLD I AM WHEN YOU AND BRYAN GET MARRIED BUT I TOTALLY CALL DIBS ON BEING THE FLOWER GIRL!

hahahahhahahahaaaa.. TBHPC PRIDE, JESS!  i LOVE YOU